Romantic Delusions & Temporary Amusement
I know that there’s a million places that you could be,
But here you sit, on this bench, existing in this moment with me.
I often wonder why you waited, why your patience never jaded,
How much space and time’s between us, yet your spirit never faded.
To be honest I’m confused, we all know I’m not your type so what is it about me that you continue to pursue?
Tell me honestly,
What is it that you see when you look at me? How is it that you feel when our eyes meet?
Does your heart jump, does it skip a beat? Because my chest feels like it’ll be the death of me,
But then the nearness of your breath, and that drum through your chest, is enough to put my mind at ease and these nerves to rest.
Forget it, it’s best you don’t say a word. Let’s just walk away right now, so we don’t have to encounter the hurt.
Because you see, I’ve been through this before,
This temporary love or infatuation, your presence, nothing but a wonderful distraction, is something I simply cannot handle anymore.
Maybe what you see is a pretty face, eyes and a smile that make you feel safe, a laugh so wild that it could fill the space,
Between us.
But,
Pull these curtains aside, and you’ll see the truth that resides, nothing but an interplay of chaos and sadness; eyes that never run dry,
You see, I’m a mess.
Broken, pieced together, toyed around with so much, all that’s left is regret.
And although you so heartedly believe that you can bless me with your presence, fix me, and light me up like the heavens, I guarantee you, that this will be nothing but yet another lesson.
Simply, kindness fueled illusions, a few romantic delusions, you think the heart wants what it wants, but this is just temporary amusement.
You see, I may fall for your kind words, continual presence and interests in me,
But I’ve learned my lesson, and know better than to let your existence take priority.
So I thank you for the memories, but I suggest that you just let me be,
Walk away, go ahead,
Leave.
They all do
Eventually.
-Vidhya S